to your favorite song. You can't believe it, you were always singing along. It was so easy, and the words so sweet. you can't remember, you try to feel the beet.
blaaaah. stomach aches are baccckk. :/ This morning was awful, my stomach hurt so bad i couldn't move at all, i wanted to just like rip out my insides it hurt so bad. I don't know why i get them so bad and so often either! My mom thinks its a reaction to some of the medicine i've been taking. I can't even eat, food just doesn't sound good at all. icck.
&& there is not sense in playing games when you've done all you can do...
gossh!!!! Okay i'm really sorry I hate ranting and telling my life stories in sets but I am making an exception to this one. soo here it goes.
boys are dumbb. there stupid. and they don't care. && there immature. I don't know what to do with max anymore. I feel like he worked so hard just to get me, and now he just sort of gave up. again. I've talked to him about this like not even two weeks ago, why he doesn't talk to me, and things got better for about a day and a half... then he left for Alaska. && now I feel farther from him then I ever have. I know i need to talk to him again but what do I say? I don't want to brake up with him at all, but I hate how he does this to me, and how he makes me feel like this. Like i'm nothing. The old feelings are starting to come back as if i'm worthless and not good enough which I know i'm not. I know he likes me, but its just so hard to believe that. When we are together everything is great, he's sweet and nice and i couldn't ask for anything more. When ever we do talk it's alright he always tells me he never stops thinking about me (which i wonder if that could ever be true.) and I don't know. Lately i can't even talk to him when we do talk because i'm so worked up about everything else. This is all a big mess && I know none of you are going to understand any of this or be able to tell me what to do. i just need to get this out i guess.
I was on your porch last night the smoke it sank into my skin... ♥
Hmm lets see todaayy was an interesting day! I went to Max's grandmothers house with his whole family and two of his cousins, it was fun(: we went swimming and watched this really weird and confusing movie.
I was babysitting this evening and I was just getting the baby in her pajamas for bed, and the dad came home, and the little boy who is five looked outside and was like "WHOA! there is a HUUGGEE storm coming" annd me thinking oh probably just a few dark clouds you know he is only five he exagerates everything. Well I told the dad I would walk home since it's only like a block away, and it was just barely sprinkling. I was about half way home when I noticed all the neighbors where standing outside and bringing all there stuff indoors, and looking up at the sky. So i looked up and HOLY CRAP there is this GIANT funnel cloud right about my house. Yeah i ran for my life back home and the sirens started going off as soon as i got inside. soo interesting night!
no damage though just bad tunderstorms and a little power loss but only for like a min. gosssh I hate storms!!